2002-07-29
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I wonder how long I can keep up this game of fooling myself into beleving I'm gonna get any better.I'll get a moment of will,a second of hope that I might be able to do something constructive with my life,possibly get out of my rut.I wish it were true.I wish I could stay in that optimistic mind frame that it will all be fine if I just try harder.I don't know,everytime i have an up,there most certainly is a equal or worse down.I guess I just have a horrible veiw of things.
I'm just so tired,always tired,and as soon as I try to wake up and set a plan,my brain seems to shut down and that sedated feeling comes back.
I'm so fucking sick of this..sorry
3:21 a.m. 
by Timm Jumper
