2002-05-31
A story
He looked around ,stared at his room,his posessions and various objects throughout the house.Many ,many times he had seen all this,but not once in the way he did now.It was if a new light was on,more like they way we veiw things while dreaming.He knew his room and house were dark,for it was the middle of the night and hardly a light were on in his room,but for some strange reason ,everything could be seen in detail.He could tell something was slightly different,something about the way the world looked now,real,but at the same time a dream.
He reflected back upon the last time he saw his beloved pet.Simply sitting in the living room,staring at what seemed like nothing,but he knew was something he could not yet see,and might not see for a long time.
He called out his pets name.No response,then a slight turn of head ,and an agnowledging stare,then back to the gaze.
The next morning his pet was gone,not in the physical sense,his body lie cold and motionless beside him,but in the true sense,gone.
It now dawned on him.He was staring,wacthing his familiar world the same way his beloved pet was.
In awe of a world that had always been,but had never been seen untill now.
He tried to hold on,remeber all the things he loved and things he feared,but for some reason,all those fears,those worries of pain and effects of self-abuse were gone.
It all seemed so insignificant now.Sure ,there was a sense of mourning for hisloved ones.They would not understand.They would be so sad.He felt alot for them,but knew someday they would smile again,for in time all things are understood.
He felt this strange new feeling grow,and the sadness and confusion fade.
Once again,once more he layed in his bed.Smiling and staring at his world in a way he'd always wished he could,and with a smile slept.
He slept the way he'd yearned for so long.
No more restlessness.No more sadness and pain.
Dreams of love and happiness now fill his soul.
With a final apologie to those he truly loved,and wishing they could have truly known how much they were loved,he smiles and whispers, Goodnight,
In time we will all be happy again,we will understand, You will smile again...
3:02 a.m. 
by Timm Jumper
